I ran away from Home

Ever have one of those days when you just can't take it anymore and want to run away and not look back? I don't know what is going on with my children but they have been driving me to the brink of a breakdown. They have been very disrespectful and defiant. Especially "little miss butterfly." For some reason she thinks she is the boss and needs to tell me what to do. She completely ignores me when I ask her to do something. The boys have been fighting roughly and throw stupid tantrums. Dominic has given Reynaldo two bloody noses this week from playing too rough. I have tried every form of discipline and nothing is working. I have to keep in mind that these are not your atypical children and they are wired different but that doesn't mean I should look the other way when they act this way. They are in need of some major boot camp structure with some STRICT rules! That is all in the works right now. I know for a fact they do much better when things are consistent and structured. People seem to look at me strange when I am so structured and strict but they are not the parents of my kids. They don't know their needs and issues. I need to stop caring what others think and do what is best for my babies. After an emotional phone call with my husband about feeling so overwhelmed and stressed out it was much decided that I needed to leave when my husband got home and spend the evening out. Knowing how moody I have been lately and grumpy, I really did not want to be around anyone. After a suggestion from a friend I went and walked around some stores and decided to go see a movie. I have never gone to a movie by myself but I have to admit I liked it even though it felt weird. I was actually the only one in the theatre. I left feeling very destressed and ready to face the challenge of being Super Preggo Momma. I am sure baby Gracie was relieved to have quiet time in the womb away from all the Drama.

Update on Baby Sweet Potato

Just an update on my pregnancy. Gracie is still a girl. I was so afraid that she would have grown a penis or something this past month since my last ultrasound. I am still miserable and achy. I know I complain too much. I just have always heard women say, Oh I just love being pregnant!! I love the fact that I have another human being that is flesh of my flesh and of my husband but I hurt and am sick and moody etc. How could you like being like this all the time? Just like women say "I miss being pregnant" Whats to miss? Maybe my mind will change closer to the end.
I feel like I am walking around like a granny. Geez what will I be like at 8 or 9 months? Anyway. Things are still progressing nicely. Gracie is now 11 ounces and looks really good. She is an active little booger. Likes to move those arms and legs around. I am still only feeling flutters and pressure on my lower abdomen but she moves like crazy during Ultrasounds. I will have to post some of her first pictures. She wasn't as photogenic this time around.

Question of the Week

I personally am planning to breast feed my baby when she is born, if I am able. I don't know if this will be possible due to having a breast reduction surgery about 6 years ago. The Dr. said I wouldnt know until I tried. I have noticed though through stuff I have read online and in magazines that a lot of the population is against this. I would love to have a healthy conversation about why Breast feeding is great and any tips you might have and also why people are so against it.

Pierogi

Pierogi are semi-circular dumplings of unleavened dough stuffed with cheese, sauerkraut,onions or potatoes.I personally love them with Farmers or Dry cottage cheese in them.
It has been a family tradition of ours that my grandmother and mother make our families secret recipe pierogi every Spring and we enjoy them during lent. This year my mom taught my sisters how to make them. I unfortunately live to far away to partake in this joyous event and I was quite sad because I have a love for them. If you have had the box type that is sold in the grocery store you have no clue what you are missing out in. There is nothing like a nice pierogi with a lot of butter and onions on it fried up in a pan. Not exactly a weight watchers legal but hey you have to live alittle once in awhile.
I decided this morning that I was going to attempt to make them myself. I had made them once before but had trouble shaping them. Today after a few phone calls to grandma, I achieved my goal and they came beautifully. I must say they were delicious also. I was sure to fry one up right then and there. My two littlest kids have decided they don't like them. Oh Well, more for daddy and mommy. The wonderful thing is, the freeze up beautifully.
I think my next challenge is going to be Golumpki.

An Amazing Evening of a Lifetime

The circus was amazing and we had a blast! I was in awe of everything around me and I think I was more excited then the kids. So many of the stars were extremely friendly at the preshow and the kids were on the edge of their seats during the show. We started the evening with getting their faces painted.

The Greatest Show on Earth

Boy are my kids in for a huge surprise. My husband works for a not for profit organization here in Jersey and we were given tickets to take the Children to the Barnum and Bailey Big Top Circus this weekend. It is special VIP passes in a sky box. I think I am just as excited as they will be. Don't worry. Tons of pictures will follow.

Discouraged

I am feeling so discouraged today. My son Rey has been cycling so bad with his moods and I just don't know what to do for him anymore. He goes from happiness to anger to sadness so fast it scares me. I found out this morning that he is spitting out his medicine again when no one is looking. Found the evidence in his trashcan when I cleaned his room. That explains the quick cycling.He says stuff a lot lately too like he wishes he were dead, he says he wishes a car would hit him etc. He is only 6 years old!!! Luckily we have an appointment next week with his Dr. I am hoping we can resolve this.He needs counseling but the problem is that there is such a long wait list everywhere. We have been waiting for almost a year.
We have an appointment today with the gastroentrologist. I am hoping he will do some testing because Rey is not gaining weight and is not eating much of anything.

Ok DIal 911...

While we were getting ready for bed on Saturday night at the hotel room, I heard Rey tell Kiarrah " Ok now dial 911". I turned around quickly to find Kiarrah dialing on the phone and she hung up quickly. I wasn't sure if it went through before she hung up but 5 minutes later the phone rings and it is the lady at the front desk making sure everything is ok. My husband explained what happened and apologized and hung up. 5 minutes later the phone rings again and it is the front desk letting us know that a police officer had arrived and wouldn't be coming up to the room to make sure everything was all right because they have to follow up on all calls to 911. He came up and we explained again what had happened and I asked him to put some fear in my children. He smiled at me and proceeded with a 911 lesson. Reynaldo decided it was time to interview the police man and he kept interrupting with questions such as, Do you drive a fast car? Do you ever get bad guys? etc etc etc. The cop was trying really hard not to laugh and made it clear that he understood that we had our hands full with this little booger. I think Kiarrah learned her lesson! Don't do what big brother Rey tells her to do. Thank goodness they know 911 and let's just hope they know when and when not to use it.

Question of the Week

If you had two or three children that had a Handicap that was brought on by a genetic disorder such as Autism, Spina Bifida or some other birth defect, would you try to bring another child into the world? What are your feelings on this?

Family Picture

We are back!!!

We had a nice weekend away down at the shore to attend Fran and Seth's wedding. All I can say is I am exhausted. The wedding was elegant but simple and definitely done in Fran style. Dominic did an awesome job as Mr. Ring bearer. He managed to overcome his fear and walked down the aisle without hesitation. A smile would have been nice but that would be asking for a lot from him. I am just totally amazed that he did it. He was so cute during the wedding because he was watching everything that was going on and when it was time for the Bride and groom to kiss he had such a big goofy grin on his face.

He was smittened with Fran's blond hair nieces from California. He kept wanting me to ask them to dance with him. He was more interested in the older one but when she wouldn't give him the time of day he moved on to the younger one. He was like such a loved sick puppy when it was time to leave. Ahhh Young puppy love!!!!

The other two kids loved being at the wedding also. Kiarrah told Uncle Seth that he was going to marry her because she had on a Cinderella gown and glass slippers. She has always had a thing for him and used to tell Auntie Frances that she couldn't marry Uncle Seth because she was going too. Kiarrah tore up the dance floor with all of her fancy dance moves. She had most of the wedding party out there dancing with her and spinning her around. The poor thing got blisters on the back of her feet from all the action. Reynaldo had fun hanging out with all of the young adult males. They gave him so much attention and he was up to no good with them. :)

We were able to get some nice pictures and I will upload a few in the next couple of days.

Book list

Finally here is a list of the books that I have decided I am going to tackle for the Spring Challenge. This is just a starter list and I hope to add to it as I go along. Can't wait to check out what others are planning on reading.

Book List

A Mind At A Time by Mel Levine

When the Heart Cries by Cindy Woodsmall

Nights in Rodanthe by Nicholas Sparks

Hinds Feet on High Places by Hannah Hurnard

Under the Feet of Jesus by Helena Maria Viramontes

New Book Blog

I have decided to start a new blog to share about all of my reading challenges and adventurous. I will be adding some of the books that my children and I enjoy reading together. Be sure to bookmark this new site.

Spring Reading Thing 2007

Happy First Day of SPRING 2007! I have decided to join Spring Reading Thing 2007 to get myself motivated to read. How many of you have books sitting around that you just not made the time to read. I love to read and would rather have my nose stuck in a book then watching tv. Won't you join us on this challenge? All guidelines can be found if you follow the above link to Katrina's Blog. Now to make my list of the five books I want to finish and start.

KIKI Monster Strikes Again

Last night I couldn't find my glasses anywhere after having taken out my contacts. I knew where I left them and they weren't there. I started freaking out because it is not like I had money to go out and buy a whole new pair. I went to bed upset and first thing this morning I started questioning the kids if they knew where they were. When I woke Kiarrah up and asked her she was like " Oh Yes mommy, I know where they are. She goes in her room and pulls open her closet door and there they were on the floor with a bunch of Polly Pocket Dolls. I asked her what they were doing there and she proceeds to tell me that she needed them to see her dolls. I was very calm and thanked her for finding them and told her that she is not to touch them because they are delicate and cost a lot of money. I hate having to keep EVERYTHING out of her reach. She is 4 1/2 and should be past this.

We love each other .....

These two fight all of the time so it was nice to get a picture of them like this. Kiarrah has some crazy hair. Isn't Dominic a handsome young man? Can't wait to see him on Saturday in his tux.

Mr. Crabby Pants Smiles

Mr Crabby Pants did not want to get his picture taken but was upset that I had Kiarrahs pictures on my blog. Finally after some help from big brother Dom we were able to get a picture with the teeth showing. Rey has been so crabby lately and I pray that we get over this hurdle soon. We have a Psych appointment and one with the stomach Dr. Maybe someone will have the answer we need. On a good note he did manage to eat 2 chicken legs tonight after much coaxing. We had to remind him that he loves the chicken legs that I make. That was all he would eat but it was better than nothing.

A KIKI Funny

This morning Kiarrah was being extremely hyper and was jumping around and singing "Hyper girl Hyper Girl Hyper girl". Jim asked her to stop and she looks at him quite seriously and says to him " But I am your honey, I am your sunshine, You love me and then she proceeding to sing I love you, you love me, were a happy family.... Blah blah blah. We both just cracked up laughing.

Future Highkicker?

Yesterday I had a prenatal appointment with my OBGYN. Kiarrah had insisted on going with me instead of staying with Daddy who had cars to shovel out. My appointment went really well and everything is progressing great with the pregnancy. The Dr. finally agreed to put me on something for the morning sickness that I am plagued with because of the affect it has on my sugar levels due to the diabetes. So far so good this morning. I woke up alittle nauseous but took another pill and it went away. I am feeling like " where have you been all my life?" The morning sickness has been awful. My mom and grandma went through the same thing during their pregnancies. When we were listening to the heartbeat you could hear a little thumping besides the heartbeat which was nice and steady btw. The nurse asked me if I heard it and she said it was Gracie kicking. She is an active little bug. Kiarrah thought that was really neat and wanted to see Gracie but I don't get my next ultrasound for another 2 weeks. So Thank God everything is going good!

Mystery Photos

Kiarrah loves to get a hold of my camera and take pictures. There are many times when I didn't even know she had played with it and I go to upload pictures and find many surprises photos. This is one of those moments.