Discouraged

I am feeling so discouraged today. My son Rey has been cycling so bad with his moods and I just don't know what to do for him anymore. He goes from happiness to anger to sadness so fast it scares me. I found out this morning that he is spitting out his medicine again when no one is looking. Found the evidence in his trashcan when I cleaned his room. That explains the quick cycling.He says stuff a lot lately too like he wishes he were dead, he says he wishes a car would hit him etc. He is only 6 years old!!! Luckily we have an appointment next week with his Dr. I am hoping we can resolve this.He needs counseling but the problem is that there is such a long wait list everywhere. We have been waiting for almost a year.
We have an appointment today with the gastroentrologist. I am hoping he will do some testing because Rey is not gaining weight and is not eating much of anything.

Cycling

I am so frustrated right now with the whole Bipolar issue. Whenever it seems like Reynaldo is doing so much better it goes and changes. His moods had finally hit a stabilized level and he seemed so happy but then he stopped eating again. It seems like when he takes a dosage that is beneficial for him it affects his stomach and he cant eat. The leg cramps also start. We decided to bring his dosage back down which still works but not as affective. He has more crying jags, my anger outbursts and just lots of cycling. We have an appointment next month and I really pray that the Dr. can do something and can help him. We might have to change meds all together which is always a rough road. I just want my baby boy to be happy. I hate seeing him like this. he just can not afford to lose anymore weight. We already have his meals supplemented with pediasure.
Hopefully we can get through this and get some help.