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Wednesday, May 09, 2007

Birthmothers

With Mother's Day approaching I am usually struck by such a sadness. Not for myself but for the birth mothers of my children. I guess it has hit me more this year because of carrying my little bundle in my womb right now. How do they feel on that day? Do they think of the child that was either taken away or given up? With Dom and Kiarrah the judge terminated rights after many years because both mothers were crack addicts and didn't want to ( or just couldn't bring themselves to) go through a drug rehab and detox. Neither child was the first born. It was history repeating itself many times. I can't imagine a mother not feeling something or wondering and missing their child. I sometimes wish I could have contact with them in someway and reassure them that their offspring was safe and doing well. Dominic's birthmother gave birth to him and left the hospital and was never seen again. Her need for the drug was so strong that she didn't look back. Kiarrah's mother fought for her but in all the wrong ways. With agression, a drugged up stupor and violence. She is extremely unstable and unable to take care of even herself. Rey's mom surrendered her rights because she felt he was better off with people who could provide for him. She too struggled with the Demon called Crack. She met us through foster care and named us as the people she wanted him to be with She had a deep love for her child and wanted what was best for him. I pray for each mother all of the time. Thank you for allowing me to be the Mother to your offspring.

Wacky Wednesday

I am so tired today. I slept over at the twins house because their parents went out of town. I can't believe my girls are already 13. I was their nanny for 8 years. I took the little butterfly with me and she loved all of the attention. They gave her a bath in their jacuzzi tub and she thought that was AWESOME! Especially when the bubbles from the shampoo started multiplying. We just spent a quiet evening at home after they completed all of their homework.
Rachel got out her stethoscope (a real one) and we all listened to Gracie's heartbeat. It was awesome. I wasn't certain at first if we would be able to hear it. They thought it was so neat.
I had a hard time sleeping. Kiarrah and I shared the bed in the guest room and she is such a bed hog and then I just couldn't get comfortable. Baby girl is laying low in the front of my stomach where it folds when you sit. It even feels weird walking up stairs.
Today I am going to veg and try to fit a nap in. Kiarrah was up so early. I am hoping she will lay down too. I have life group tonight so want to be refreshed. Not falling asleep. I have so much to do around here but hey God didn't do it all in one day, why should I :)